Wake up call.

Sometimes I forget who I really am and become someone I really don't know. No, it's not really the teenage-rebellion-stuff but more of the I'm-overwhelmed-and-I-don't-know-what-I'm-doing kind of thing. Get me? I tend to over-think things, become overly easily distracted up to the point where things gets really out of hand. I can't sleep peacefully, always panicking, can't smile wholeheartedly, get low marks and most especially I start doubting myself.

This past few weeks had been very though and I must say that I've never been this disappointed with myself. I must admit it was my fault, I've been to preoccupied by things that wasn't really that important; my priorities weren't met and getting low marks were the consequences that I must face.

Never in my wildest dreams would I have imagined that I could get such grades! It was like a slap in my face! A concrete evidence that I've been too careless and too distracted. It was indeed a wake-up call for me to straighten-up my act and be the person that people used to look-up to and not some mediocre. And mediocrity is what I hate the most. I am unique and I wouldn't settle for anything less.

So now, I'm starting to be that one that I know, the real me. I believe that everything happens for a reason and moping around will do me no good. The consequences had been faced and I opt to start bouncing back. I know that if I really put my heart and mind into something, I will sashay through it with flying colors. At one point the light inside me was dimmed but now I can feel that raging fire is within me and I am ready to illuminate.

The hibernation is over. Yes baby, I am back and I am back with a better version of myself. BRING IT ON baby 'coz I am up for more! ;)

Ganbatte Ikimasshoi!

A HUGE WAVE OF ZOMBIES ARE COMING

I'm EXHAUSTED! Exhausted physically, emotionally, spiritually and most of all MENTALLY! This week is CRAZY as in crazy as hell. I'm trying to keep my cool but its just total chaos inside my head! AAAAAAARRRRRGGGGHHHHH! I can't wait for this week and the next week to end!

I lack sleep, I study much and I am F'CKING HUNGRY! :)

Sulat sulat din pag may time.

Oh good Lord! Homeworks!

I am actually doing my computer homework while doing this post. I don't know what got into me and led me into making this. I admit I';m quite tinatamad na in writing these things. Nakakaloka! I wanna sleep na but I can't. Kasi naman eh, ang aga nito ipapass. Psh! Nagsisisii na tuloy ako, dapat two days ago ko paito sinulat eh, pero dahil sa sobrang "sipag" ko eh hindi ko ginawa. Natatawa nalang ako sa sarili ko eh.

Btw, I've been in front of the computer for 10 hours na and napapahod na ang mga mata ko. Jusko, ang electric bill namin. Patay nanaman tayo niyan sa bayaran! Well, yun lang naman ang gusto kong sabihin. Busy ako sa "paggawa ng assignments" at sana sipagin na ako. Ok, magsusulat na ulit ako. Babush! ♥

Optimism

I've always been that kind of girl who tends to pull things off no matter what happens. I don't care if in the end I'll be super stressed, and haggard as long as my task was executed properly and that it turns out maybe not how I perceived it to be but near to eat (or at times much better).

So yeah, this week was kind of overwhelming at school especially in some of my subjects. Hahaha! Grace under pressure is like my motto right now. I need to deliver in spite of all the craziness going all around. Not juts deliver, deliver but deliver in a graceful way. Though it's not a major, major problem to me for I am innate with this kind of situations na since High School days pa but still the pressure, the fatigue, the stress (both emotionally and mental) I just can't bear with them at times. I can say I've been there and done that but nothing is the same as the other everytime. 

I don't like feeling pressured and stress, yet I LIKE the challenge. So in some ways I also like being pressured and stressed. Crazy aren't I? But its true, sometimes the pressure is what makes me tick; it's what makes me function more and serves as a kind of motivation. Making the positive out of the negative as I call it.

People tell me that I'm optimistic, and I think so too (tho, not as optimistic as they think of). But I'm also realistic. I also think of the worst case scenarios and try to avoid them. And that's where I overthink. Sometimes I only stress myself with something that I shouldn't be stressed about. Hahaha!

This post is not making any sense right now. So, I'll cut this and I'll update you if something happens! Leggo!

P.S. Here is something from Pink that's some kind of a booster! :P Bye.

Another Ending's New Beginning

Hi there! This is my first blog in a long long time. I still have no idea what is this post exactly all about but maybe in the course of it, the purpose will eventually manifest.

This post won't be about myself, but still be about me. I don't want it to be the "first post" cliché where in I'll have to introduce myself. That's just too typical. And so, here is a vid from one of my favorite bands ever, Imagine Dragons.

The title is Demons and no, it's not about the demons you're thinking about. It's about facing YOUR OWN DEMONS. I know its kinda dark, and I am not making any sense right now but yeah I love this song. And a lot of other weird songs. :)

So yah, I guess that's it for now. Maybe one day I'll post something that actually make sense. :)